I made two phone calls today. I had shared the news with my two best friends in their preferred way of communication; Messenger. I had thought it many times, cried about it too but those phone calls where I said the words brought me to hysterical tears. It doesn’t matter that the doctor said we caught it early, it is easily treatable and doesn’t usually spread quickly…I feel disconnected. I am changed. I have cancer.
I am overwhelmed with the response to my post about my cancer diagnosis. For someone who feels alone most of the time, I don’t even know what to say but: Thank you.
To be honest I am extremely touchy right now but thankful for positive comments.
I am not a person that understands contacting people on holidays only, so if you are one of those people, please just send your prayers.
Even if you think you know my history, you probably only know someone else’s perspective. Before I was diagnosed with cancer, I was also diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Lymphedema, GERD, Diabetes, PTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and OCD…with only my wife and sister/friend to help me be strong. I have already been contacted by a sibling that hasn’t spoken to me in years. I made sure they understood I have nothing for them.
If this is too much information for you, I am sorry but I strive to live an honest and authentic life. Secrets got me here and they are not welcome anymore. It may sound like I have forgiving to do but I have forgiven and love and pray for the people in my past, I just have no appetite for drama and competition and I choose to be honest and refuse to be punished for it.
God bless you all.
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My name is Summer. That is how you can call me. I hope that I am a blessing to you. I am not perfect. I will fall again. But I am forgiven.
Do you know Jesus? Do want the Holy Spirit to fill you and give you understanding and salvation? Ask Him. Want someone to pray with you? Contact me.
If you would like to know Jesus as your friend, but want to make this amazing commitment by yourself please pray something like this:
Thank you Jesus that You are the Son of God, the God that created heaven and earth. Thank you Jesus that You came to earth in the form of a man so that You would be able to empathize with my humanity. Thank You that You did this in order to fulfill the promises You made at the foundation of the world.
I realize that I am a sinner and do things that hurt myself and keep myself away from you. Thank You that You died for my sins so that You could defeat death and bring me into Your life. Please forgive me.
I ask You to be Lord of my life. I ask you to heal my hurts and show me what my new life, empowered by You looks like. Thank You for Your mercy.
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