Veda is Here
I am so blessed to have everything I need. I don’t tend to go into detail when I am depressed but Veda has been here 3 days. I named her that. I can already imagine the conversation with my psychiatrist tomorrow: No. I don’t think I need more meds. I think I can name...
Empathy is Good, Judgement is Not
I was harassed recently by a "friend" of a friend who is having a hard time and I really had some things I wanted to say in response to their messages...empathy is good, judgement is not... I am such a lucky woman! I do have trials but I am able to see patterns and...
Mourning and Learning
Mourning and learning are hard. I have struggled in my head this week. It is real but not something I can put on a shelf. But I have communicated some boundaries I need. I have told doctors what I needed from them. I have told my wife I need time with just her (I look...
Happy Valentines Day 2022
Karen G Clemenson and I don’t do Valentines Day...there is never a day that goes by that we don’t tell or show each other that we love each other and appreciate each other so we don’t need a commercialized day to celebrate it...if we get to foster/adopt we will soften...
Respect is Key
Love is important but respect is key. Karen and I had a rare moment where we weren’t exhausted or didn’t have to be somewhere. We were enjoying that moment by having a nice talk. I told her I thought love was fickle. To me, respect was most important. I give every...
Tired but Hopeful
I am so tired but hopeful. Karen and I are working on getting the doctor bills paid and applying for assistance. This lifts a little of the burden off our shoulders. For some reason prescription costs are covered less by insurance one year and more the next, and we...
God does
When I don't have enough faith God does. Been contemplating a lot. Not a lot I want to share with anyone but God and my team but I am hanging in there and I am thankful. I have had a lot of doctor appointments lately and will have more too. The bills are mounting and...
I am Struggling
I know God is with me. I keep talking to Him. He is the only one around most of the time. I know He is working. But I am struggling. I spent much of yesterday watching Little House on the Prairie. I needed it. I wish the world was really like that. Where people were...
Honoring the Process of Healing
I am honoring the process of healing. Having COVID-19 was hard. So is healing from it. Most decongestants and cough meds have ibuprofen or acetaminophen in them; I cannot have those. My doctor prescribed some that would work but my insurance would not cover them and...
Keeping My Eyes on My Path
I must practice keeping my eyes on my path. I have been pushing hard to get our home clean and organized. Karen works 3 jobs and her strengths are not domestic, however she is excellent at keeping the garbage under control and she has gotten tremendously better at...