I am Struggling

by | Feb 1, 2022 | Life

I know God is with me. I keep talking to Him. He is the only one around most of the time. I know He is working. But I am struggling. I spent much of yesterday watching Little House on the Prairie. I needed it. I wish the world was really like that. Where people were...

Honoring the Process of Healing

by | Jan 22, 2022 | Life

I am honoring the process of healing. Having COVID-19 was hard. So is healing from it. Most decongestants and cough meds have ibuprofen or acetaminophen in them; I cannot have those. My doctor prescribed some that would work but my insurance would not cover them and...

Keeping My Eyes on My Path

by | Jan 20, 2022 | Life

I must practice keeping my eyes on my path. I have been pushing hard to get our home clean and organized. Karen works 3 jobs and her strengths are not domestic, however she is excellent at keeping the garbage under control and she has gotten tremendously better at...

I Got COVID-19

by | Jan 19, 2022 | Life

The last month has been hard. As I got over one thing, I was hit with something else. Winter is generally harder on me… In all of it, I am thankful and have hope. Thanks be to God. My primary doctor went on vacation, which I am glad she was able to do, but I was...

Radical Acceptance

by | Dec 28, 2021 | Cancer, Life

I am so thankful to Jesus! Radical acceptance tells me that I am not ready for what I want but He is always working on me and I always have what I need. I am a blessed woman. The easy way has never worked for me so struggle is not new to me. Luckily for me, I don’t...

Merry Christmas 2021

by | Dec 25, 2021 | Life

Merry Christmas from Karen and I! We had a wonderfully relaxing day. Xavier got us up by 9 am so I made Karen coffee (I am not drinking coffee right now but she loves it) and Karen found the Disney Christmas Parade. That was fun to watch. I did not have any episodes...

Trigeminal Neuralgia

by | Dec 23, 2021 | Life

I am being treated for Trigeminal Neuralgia. 7 days of meds should get me into remission. I will see a neurologist as soon as possible not just because of this but other issues I am having that are not as painful, just annoying. My episode today, started around 2 pm....

Keep Moving

by | Dec 20, 2021 | Life

I must keep moving! These pain experiences are happening more frequently and sometimes are much longer. Last night Karen said my episode may have been 2 minutes. I can’t make an episode happen so I don’t know what is causing it. Most of the time it seems to be nerves...

Self-Care is Important

by | Dec 19, 2021 | Cancer, Life

Today is a good day! But last night was terrible …you would think I would read ingredients on a new food…but I didn’t so I have been tired and in more pain all day. I decided today was a good day to rest from my workout because self-care is important and...

Choose Positivity

by | Dec 18, 2021 | Life

Today has been a great day to choose positivity, following 2 other great days. Thursday I did most of my workout and made a huge pot of soup with onion, carrots, celery, cabbage, corn, pumpkin, ground turkey and plant based sausage. It turned out great. There are two...

Another Great Day

by | Dec 14, 2021 | Cancer, Life

Today was a great day! I needed this. The last week has been a struggle. Especially Saturday, Sunday and Monday. My body has recovered from my procedure well but as my body gets used to balancing hormones it has been hard. I had my post op appointment today and the NP...

3 Days Post Surgery…

by | Dec 4, 2021 | Cancer, Life

It has been 3 days post surgery. I am getting around fine, but I know I can’t do what I was able to do before my surgery and that is hard on me. It is amazing how you can work hard to create a healthy habit, like working out every day and then something happens...

Pray For Each Other

by | Dec 1, 2021 | Life

Surgery day. I never realized how much has to be done to prepare for surgery! I spent the last 2 days cleaning, doing laundry and removing jewelry. I did my workouts both days, just as I will do in a few minutes. I don’t care for the antibacterial soap I had to wash...

Being Thankful

by | Nov 23, 2021 | Life

Today was a good and THANKFULL day! After 2-3 hours of sleep I did my workout and was dressed and ready to leave at 9 am…not my normal routine but today was pre-op day. We traveled to Legacy Salmon Creek and spent about 2 hours there. When we were done there, we...

Doing the Work Anyway

by | Nov 20, 2021 | Cancer, Life

Today has been a wonderful day. It started sad but eventually turned to glad. I had a very stressful dream that left me very sad. I couldn’t shake it. My brain wanted to dissociate, which is a normal trauma response for me, so it was hard to make different choices but...

Being Human

by | Nov 11, 2021 | Cancer, Life

Today was a big day with lots of emotions. I couldn’t sleep last night so on less than 4 hrs of sleep I did my workout and found myself at PeaceHealth Imaging for the first CT scan of my life. It went well and quickly. When we were pulling out of the parking garage,...

Food for Thought

by | Nov 9, 2021 | Life

I am proving myself consistent at having trouble with my limits. With everything I did yesterday, I have been sluggish all day. I would love a nap but I am afraid I will have trouble sleeping tonight…Karen won’t be home for 2 hours. Today I made a huge crockpot...

Carrying it Well

by | Nov 5, 2021 | Life

Today I am tired! I slept for 12 hours straight last night and slept in so much that I had to eat to take meds before my workout. I have GERD so that is not fun but I made it through! Thank You Jesus! Each exercise was hard. My body is tired; really tired. I had to do...

There is Always Tomorrow…

by | Nov 4, 2021 | Life

Today was good but it won. I did get my workout in and a very small walk in. I hurt today and even though I am tired I am not sleeping and if I do sleep, I have stressful dreams. Talking on the phone is hard for me. Phones have been used as weapons against me in the...

Another Good Day!

by | Nov 3, 2021 | Life

Today was a good day! I woke up in a lot of pain, understandably, with the amount of walking I did yesterday but once I forced myself to do my workout my body was willing to comply…Thank You Jesus! I walked more yesterday than I have in a long time and my body...

Getting Some Answers

by | Nov 2, 2021 | Cancer, Life

Today was a success! Even though the clutch went out (we will find out if the parts that are acting up are still covered by the warranty on Wednesday) we were able to get a rental…thanks to our good friend, Jhohanna, and not miss my first visit with the...