When I don’t have enough faith God does. Been contemplating a lot. Not a lot I want to share with anyone but God and my team but I am hanging in there and I am thankful. I have had a lot of doctor appointments lately and will have more too. The bills are mounting and the amount we spend on prescriptions has grown noticeably and I am trying to not get overwhelmed. People suggest applying for assistance like that is easy, but it has never worked out that way for us…<
I am beyond tired…and not just of this pandemic but of the struggle of life. I am tired of pain and being sick. I am tired of having to make sure I drink a gallon of fluids a day and avoid gluten, nightshades, soy, certain oils, citrus, some legumes…there is not one part of my life that is just easy so it is easy to just want to stay in bed and that is what I sometimes end up doing. It is hard to imagine the life I want because it takes so much to get through the life I have.
I will say this. I know that God is with me. I feel Him and I see Him. I know He gave me the best partner for me, who inspires me to keep trying. He allowed me to meet another one of my favorite people yesterday and show me how He is offering me an opportunity to rebuild an old relationship. He is always good and that is what I want to end on because He is the reason I know that even though I am tired and overwhelmed and I may doubt my future, He doesn’t and that is enough for me.
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My name is Summer. That is how you can call me. I hope that I am a blessing to you. I am not perfect. I will fall again. But I am forgiven.
Do you know Jesus? Do want the Holy Spirit to fill you and give you understanding and salvation? Ask Him. Want someone to pray with you? Contact me.
If you would like to know Jesus as your friend, but want to make this amazing commitment by yourself please pray something like this:
Thank you Jesus that You are the Son of God, the God that created heaven and earth. Thank you Jesus that You came to earth in the form of a man so that You would be able to empathize with my humanity. Thank You that You did this in order to fulfill the promises You made at the foundation of the world.
I realize that I am a sinner and do things that hurt myself and keep myself away from you. Thank You that You died for my sins so that You could defeat death and bring me into Your life. Please forgive me.
I ask You to be Lord of my life. I ask you to heal my hurts and show me what my new life, empowered by You looks like. Thank You for Your mercy.
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