I am not shocked that it takes a diagnosis that can kill me that my siblings would finally reach out to me after so many years. I was given siblings that require more forgiving than I have time for. When they needed me, I gave my time, money and love but it was never reciprocated. In return I have been interrupted, told to stop talking, ignored, rejected and cut out my nieces and nephew’s lives (the real reason I gave for so long).
One sibling was my best friend for years but then she was gone. Another sibling just cut me out, not even answering my messages when I wanted to see if they were ok. The only one that hasn’t reached is the most evil; they lie and manipulate situations so they are always right or they are the victim, it makes me sick to watch. I hope they leave me alone. I don’t care if they want to feel like they did the right thing to check in with me.
I am tired of waiting for my parents and siblings to show any interest in my life or having a relationship.
Love is not enough. I pray for these people and try to enjoy the good memories I have but I deserve people who respect and enjoy me. I can’t carry anyone but me and my true family. I am not going to beg for time and relationship anymore.
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My name is Summer. That is how you can call me. I hope that I am a blessing to you. I am not perfect. I will fall again. But I am forgiven.
Do you know Jesus? Do want the Holy Spirit to fill you and give you understanding and salvation? Ask Him. Want someone to pray with you? Contact me.
If you would like to know Jesus as your friend, but want to make this amazing commitment by yourself please pray something like this:
Thank you Jesus that You are the Son of God, the God that created heaven and earth. Thank you Jesus that You came to earth in the form of a man so that You would be able to empathize with my humanity. Thank You that You did this in order to fulfill the promises You made at the foundation of the world.
I realize that I am a sinner and do things that hurt myself and keep myself away from you. Thank You that You died for my sins so that You could defeat death and bring me into Your life. Please forgive me.
I ask You to be Lord of my life. I ask you to heal my hurts and show me what my new life, empowered by You looks like. Thank You for Your mercy.
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