by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 10, 2025 | About Summer, Cancer, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
Nana never spoke about her cancer and I never asked her to. I wish I had. Maybe she would tell me what I am feeling is normal. I have done everything the doctors have told me to do, no matter how painful or humiliating and still the cancer lives inside me. I am a very...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 8, 2025 | About Summer, Cancer
Tuesday I had an MRI. I have had lots of MRIs since my cancer diagnosis. I have had imaging at PeaceHealth St John, Longview Radiology, Legacy Salmon Creek, Legacy Mount Hood, Vancouver Clinic and now Good Samaritan Hospital in Portland and this one was the worst...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jan 20, 2025 | About Summer, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
I want to share my personal account with you about my God; the Father of Jesus. This is not something that I want to force you to read or make you feel anything negative about so if this is not your type of topic, I won’t be offended if you don’t read it, or you don’t...
by Summer D Clemenson | Oct 28, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
I have been fighting my body for years. The chronic illness and pain is exhausting. The one step forward and 10 steps backwards can be so defeating. It has taken 10 years for me to create and get to a place of success with my anaerobic workout; which means I can do it...
by Summer D Clemenson | Oct 22, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions, Wellness
I bought into the WalkFit app. It’s on sale for $16 for the first month and $40 after that. You might wonder why I would do that when my wife, Karen G Clemenson, is one of the best personal trainers in Cowlitz County…well I am sensory person and there is just too much...
by Summer D Clemenson | Sep 19, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
I was a dad’s girl. I tried to call my father daddy once and we both gave each other a look. We both knew he wasn’t a daddy. It wasn’t that he didn’t love me. I knew he loved me. It was just that neither of us was overly cuddly. We were more logical. I was in grade...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jul 29, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
Rumination is probably my best unconscious sport. I bet if I went to the Olympics I could bring home a gold metal for ruminating. I don’t mean to. I have OCD and PTSD and Anxiety Disorder and between those three disorders sometimes I am stuck in the past, trying to...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jun 18, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving, Queer Community, Wellness
I got triggered by Father’s Day. I didn’t realize it was Father’s Day before I went on Facebook and saw all the great posts everyone had for their dads. I write about my journey to celebrate my steps and share what I have learned with others that might benefit from my...
by Summer D Clemenson | May 11, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
I have been angry for a few weeks. I knew somewhere I needed to make amends but I didn’t know where the apology was supposed to be headed until today. My sister, Jamie Holloway, sent me a link to the cover song version of “Voices Carry” sung by Kate...
by Summer D Clemenson | Apr 29, 2024 | About Summer, Poetry
I am not afraid of the Spirit within me I am not afraid of my emotions or memories that cause physical sensations deep in my muscles that remind me where I have been and how far I have come But I am afraid you will never see or hear who I really am ~ You offered me a...
by Summer D Clemenson | Apr 25, 2024 | About Summer, Cancer, Opinions
I am so tired and I know God is carrying me. Most of the time my prayers are: God please help. Not only for myself but when I see what is going on in the world. I am not the only one that is overwhelmed. It is hard to think about the wars in the world and the children...
by Summer D Clemenson | Apr 23, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
I knew Xavier was sick and would probably need to go to Jesus when we took him to see Dr Katie yesterday. I had known it was different this time. His IBS flares usually only lasted a week but no more. He never stopped eating longer than a day or two. I heard myself...
by Summer D Clemenson | Feb 26, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
On the day after I had surgery I got an email from PayPal that my transaction with Facebook had gone through. I was on pain killers and supposed to be resting but I did not purchase any ads subscriptions with Facebook or Meta and I was angry. I had been having trouble...
by Summer D Clemenson | Feb 16, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions
There are lots of kinds of pain. At the beginning of my last therapy session I had told my therapist that I was having a pain day and he asked me how I handled that. I told him that I responded differently, based on the kind of pain it was. If it is arthritis pain, it...
by Summer D Clemenson | Feb 6, 2024 | About Summer, Chronic Illness, Opinions
I have a person from the past that emails me. I always respond but I don’t tell them too much. Just enough. I know they love me but our relationship has always been toxic. It isn’t their fault. They are a good person they just need some help and I can’t give it to...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jan 18, 2024 | About Summer, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
I have been thinking about a response I got to a post I made on Facebook last week about an interaction I had with someone. I didn’t post the conversation with the person because I wanted to get kudos for myself. I wanted to encourage anyone that needed it to make...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jan 4, 2024 | About Summer, Poetry
The monster inside of me doesn’t care about what I think or feel or want to be I was born with this and I don’t think it cares how old I am It is part of my genealogy I see it in ancestors and a few who have come after me ~ I have tried to get rid of this thing that...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 27, 2023 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
I wrote a letter to my biological father and his 2nd wife this week. It took me about 3 days to get every thing written down that I had been holding against them for the last 40 years and answer any question or accusation they made against me in the letter they sent...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 27, 2023 | About Summer, Art, Poetry
Nana told me grandparents understand I had told her I was sad I had learned late it was my responsibility to make time for Grandma Clem ~ I was baking banana bread when she came to me My heart felt warm and I knew Grandma Clem was here ~ She told me she knew her son...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 23, 2023 | About Summer, Art, Poetry
I have been the daughter of a fool For so long I wanted you to remember you loved me to choose me one time ~ Back when we built things together and grew things in the dirt and danced to Thriller and Three Dog Night Before you dishonored our home Before you left Before...