by Summer D Clemenson | Apr 26, 2023 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
I woke up today from a dream. A nightmare, really…In my dream my father was trying to murder me. I know this isn’t real, but only a dream. But in the dream my father was angry because I didn’t like the way he wanted to celebrate Christmas and I wasn’t going to...
by Summer D Clemenson | Apr 7, 2023 | About Summer, Chronic Illness
I will always have a pain inside of me about my father. Out of all of his children I know I am the most like him. He protected me when I was a little girl. My mother loved me but I wasn’t the baby she wanted. She wanted children that wanted to be taken care of and for...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 29, 2023 | About Summer, Book & Product Reviews, Education, Opinions, Queer Community
Bible Gender Sexuality Reframing the Church’s Debate on Same-Sex Relationships by James V. Brownson is the first book I have read on the topic of what the bible says about being queer. I have read the bible and I have spoken to God but I want to read what more learned...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 24, 2023 | About Summer, Life, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
Sometimes when we have a strong response to something it is because memories are bigger than the thing we are responding to. The other day I made a post on Facebook because I have seen so many memes and posts with the middle finger and it made me angry. It wasn’t my...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 22, 2023 | About Summer, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
I was triggered today. Even though I may be ready to graduate from therapy, doesn’t mean that I don’t have moments when my PTSD isn’t still in the room with me; when I suddenly feel the dread, fear and victimization that I felt growing up. I still have to deal with...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 16, 2023 | About Summer, Chronic Illness, Life, Opinions
I never considered that there would come a time that I would end my therapy. I have had at least 2 mental breaks in my lifetime. I was smart enough to be able to fake enough balance that I didn’t end up confined. I know that would not have served me well. I am...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 10, 2023 | About Summer, Cancer, Life, Opinions
I have been learning me diligently for about 20 years now. It might be odd that I didn’t start until I was in my mid-20’s for some, but it makes sense to me. I lived in a very controlled environment. It didn’t even occur to me to ask myself what I wanted until I was...
by Summer D Clemenson | Mar 1, 2023 | About Summer, Poetry
Sometimes we can’t see straight until we are removed The situation is confused by emotions we want to feel or don’t know how to name correctly until we do And often we are far on the other side before we know those words ~ I remember those days that I thought I would...
by Summer D Clemenson | Feb 23, 2023 | About Summer, Chronic Illness, Education, Life
Years ago I was at my friend’s house. My friend and their spouse had only begun addressing mental health issues with their spouse which had the potential to be a danger to them. I don’t remember if they had begun trying to find the right meds yet or not. Just because...
by Summer D Clemenson | Feb 14, 2023 | About Summer, Cancer, Life, Opinions
I had my 4th procedure on Monday February 6, 2023. When I say procedure I am speaking of a D&C under anesthesia. My oncologist removed the IUD, filled my body with gas and made my uterus dilate. She inserted a camera to see what there was to see and took biopsies...
by Summer D Clemenson | Feb 3, 2023 | About Summer, Life
Before my youngest sibling was born and my grandparents returned from their wedding in Hawaii, Nana lived in her own little house in Seattle. My mother took us there often. I loved Nana’s house. I was younger than 5 when she lived there. I don’t have a lot of full...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jan 23, 2023 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
I don’t remember ever trusting my mother. It wasn’t that she didn’t love me. It was that she was more than one person. My friend Jeff knows the kind, creative and generous woman that most people know and I am so glad he knows that woman, but I know many different...
by Summer D Clemenson | Jan 21, 2023 | About Summer, Chronic Illness, Life, Opinions
The last time I saw him on purpose was because my niece had invited me to her graduation from high school. I will do anything I am able to do for my nieces and nephews and they know it. They were my reason for showing up; they had been for years. Each of them hold a...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 23, 2022 | About Summer, Life, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
When I was little we always had an artificial tree. I am sure part of the reason was because I was a very easily sick child. We started with a very small tree, maybe because my parents were afraid I would pull it over onto myself and then for a short while we lived in...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 22, 2022 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
Merry Christmas Everyone! I hope you have everything your heart desires. To be honest I am struggling and with several triggers that I can’t really talk about so I thought I would talk about my cat Xavier (pronounced Javier) Rock’On. He is such a special...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 17, 2022 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
Most people love getting gifts but I am not most people; I hate getting gifts. It isn’t because I don’t like people showing their love but gifts often meant something else for me growing up. Gifts were maybe the only show of affection I might get for months. It might...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 16, 2022 | About Summer, Life, Opinions, Prayers & Thanksgiving
We are accustomed to hearing Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzah…and many other holidays this time of year but I would like to wish many of you a Happy Dysfunctional Holidays! Let’s be real, this time of year is far from perfect for many of us. I am not...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 8, 2022 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
I met her in my twenties, when I began really digging to try to find freedom from what was wrong with me mentally and spiritually. I had read somewhere about asking this part of yourself that seemed to be its own personality, questions and having it answer with your...
by Summer D Clemenson | Dec 1, 2022 | About Summer, Life, Opinions
I told my therapist, yesterday, that I am sure I have forgiven several people in my life completely. The part I am struggling with is that you can forgive someone, let’s call them “Person A,” so many times and then it becomes apparent that they are not a safe...
by Summer D Clemenson | Nov 17, 2022 | About Summer, Chronic Illness, Life, Opinions, Wellness
I met with my psychiatrist last Friday and spoke with him about my concerns with things that were happening inside my head that were causing me stress. October through February were the hard months for my custodial parent, so I have a hard time in these months too....
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